alexia

Thu, 26 Jun 2008 20:54:28 GMT

Had to put Edward to sleep.

I really really hate that two of my cats died this week.

Wed, 25 Jun 2008 05:27:31 GMT

Started summer classes today. My prof is about 107 years old and really sweet, though she loses her train of thought in the middle of sentences. So, there are a lot of pauses between words and she says 'um...' a lot. She seems to really care about teaching though, which is what's important.

Edward is still sick. The vet gave him about a 50/50 chance. Poor baby. :[

We had to put Zoe to sleep on Saturday.

I'm so sad and stressed and exhausted and worried and tired of being worried. I just want Edward to get better so we can all move on with our lives.

Also, when guys post pictures of themselves online to try to get dates, they need to be told that it's probably not a good idea to post photos of them with their ex girlfriends or very pretty female friends.

Tue, 04 Mar 2008 21:53:20 GMT

arghhh stress. stress stress stress!

i got an email from beckah! really excited. i emailed her back. i haven't heard from her in a while, so it's really nice. :] hopefully we can get coffee or something soon.

i have two exams on thursday, arghhh. luckily one of them is open book, but i haven't studied at ALL for religions. so that is what i'm doing tonight. i have an art history midterm during the three days that we are back at school between spring break and easter break, so i'm kinda... mad. acacia is going to be in GR over break, though, so we'll get some studying done, definitely.

i have a design project due tomorrow with a TJ that i haven't worked at all on. tonight i am going to give him a call and ask him whats up and if i can do anything, because it's a really weird project to have partners on, and basically impossible to work together on. bweh.

right now, i am going to take a nap before design survey! because that class is obnoxious and i hate having an evening class. it really sucks the fun out of my day.

Wed, 16 Jan 2008 14:18:58 GMT

I had a crazy crazy dream last night!

I dreamed that I was running in the Michigan primaries against Hillary. I only got a fairly small percentage, but it was enough to take Hillary down to second against the 'unconfirmed' vote. So, then there was this random debate thing that happened afterwards, where all of the candidates had to answer some questions. Hillary had to make a speech about how she felt about me, but then she forgot my name. So then Obama got really mad at her and started yelling at her, and then it escalated into a fistfight when Hillary got physical.

:D

Mon, 14 Jan 2008 05:58:19 GMT

I am in my dorm room. The first day of my second semester starts tomorrow. I am happy with my schedule and with the classes I'm taking. I'm happy that I've made friends here. I'm happy that my life is, overall, excellent.

I can't stop from thinking, almost obsessing about the elusive stranger that will become close to me, some time, eventually, maybe.

I want so badly to meet and be close with someone who completely comprehends me, all of my facets and quirks. I haven't met anybody like that in a long time. I haven't met anyone in a long time that I felt connected to.

Am I yet just another disaffected youth?

I connect more to the music I listen to than I do with the world around me. I feel like a stranger to my world, to my school, to my friends.

I am not depressed.

I am not anxious or angry or anything.

I am just lost, I think, in right now.

Mon, 14 Jan 2008 05:51:28 GMT

Fingers stained with pomegranate juice,
I dance among speeding tickets and too many men.
Finding myself in a haystack is harder than I thought.

Fri, 11 Jan 2008 22:48:57 GMT

sooo i changed my layout to reflect my deep love of fake mustaches.

i am putting some purple in my hair.

i go back to school tomorrow. i'm excited for my classes, but not for big rapids.

i have a lot of stuff to get done in the next couple months!

Thu, 18 Oct 2007 14:34:39 GMT

:/ terren is selling my rats. it's sad, but... if he doesn't want to take care of them anymore, then i want them to have a good home.

Wed, 17 Oct 2007 18:29:37 GMT

Bwah. I have an art history exam at 3. I think I know it. Maybe. I dunno. We'll see. I should probably study some more.

I have so much to do! I have to get started on my pop art paper for design, and my color compositions. I also need to get the rough draft of my drawing done for tomorrow morning... Guh. AND I have math homework and I need to finish my Illustrator final project on time. Maybe that'll work out. Maybe.

Bleh. I just finished rewriting my three essays for my exam. I think I'll be okay. :/ Nervous, though. haha. I hate exams.

Ummm, so... I am going to talk to Kathleen tomorrow about scheduling classes for next semester, even though I can't do it until november 8th. I'm thinking about taking an extra class or two, just to try and keep myself busy. I really hate being alone after breakups, because I start thinking too much. It's lame.

Speaking of which, Terren and I are on really good terms. We are definitely not going to date again, even though he asked me to on Monday. I think we just don't make a good couple. Neither of us gets what we need/want out of a relationship, especially on my end. So we are going to stay friends. Good friends, hopefully. :) He's such a neat guy.

Sat, 13 Oct 2007 23:10:20 GMT

terren broke up with me.

i don't know what to do with myself.

Mon, 08 Oct 2007 04:48:57 GMT

it has been a very long time since i've updated!

college is wonderful. i love my major. it is terrific. art history is great, too. i'm thinking about minoring in it.

i have a great boyfriend, too,.. Terren. :)

Not much else to say, really. i'm busy and happy.

Tue, 15 May 2007 23:28:47 GMT

Senior Dinner was wonderful. I am in tears because I love the staff at school so much and I am just going to miss them all terribly. They are some of the most amazing, wonderful, caring people I have ever had the pleasure of knowing and I don't know where I'd be without them.

It's hard to explain how much my school means to me, because most people hate their high schools. Mine is like a family. Sometimes it's awful and loud and dysfunctional, but in the end, it's full of love.

Fri, 27 Apr 2007 21:16:39 GMT

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Fri, 27 Apr 2007 17:44:16 GMT

Last night as I was driving home from work at around 11, a deer jumped into the side of my car. Long story short, the deer is dead and my car is broken. Unfortunately, I don't have collision insurance on my car. So, it's going to cost probably $1000-1500 to fix the damage. Problem! One, I don't have that kind kind of money. Everything I have is being saved for college, and that isn't too much to begin with. Two, my car isn't even worth that much money. I bought it for $1400.

I am just really angry that something that isn't my fault, something that was completely up to chance, is going to make my life really difficult for a while.

Fri, 13 Apr 2007 05:14:23 GMT

Oh. My. God. This is the most amazing book ever. I can't believe he used a dinosaur, and some polka. holy crap.

everybody needs to go read the dresden files right now. NOW.

Sun, 08 Apr 2007 21:08:17 GMT

So, I'm home from my fun spring break road trip adventure. I will update later with a more detailed description of everything that happened. I had a really fun time, but I am soooo tired.

Am and I left here last Friday morning, stayed at a hotel in rednecksville (re: Franklin) Kentucky, got flirted with by the cute southern hotel clerk, and installed a new car stereo with nothing but some duct tape, a pair of pliers, and a safety pin. We got to Pensacola on Saturday evening. We stayed with Amara's dad and some other old washed up alcoholic in an old bachelor's pad. It was... unique. There were fleas. We went to the beach and The End of the Line vegan cafe, which was amazing. I had the most amazing tempeh reuben. It was incredible. I swear it was almost a religious experience, it was just that good. It's probably my new favorite place. Unfortunately, it's over a thousand miles away from me, haha. We left on Thursday, day earlier than planned, because her dad got evicted (kind of). Sooo, we drove to North Carolina to visit Mr Honkey Catfish Sandwich (Tim) and ended up staying an extra day. We went to an amazing used bookstore and ate some delicious Mediterranean food and the best damn French fries in the world. We left at like... 8:30 yesterday morning, and got home at around 4 am. :/ AWFUL AWFUL LONG DRIVE I HATE IT. We lost time because my car was broken (but not really at all) and Amara kept missing the on ramps to highways. Also, southern drivers are CRAZY.

Now I am just very very very glad to be home, but I still have to unpack my effing car. :/

Tue, 20 Mar 2007 04:02:54 GMT

I am tired as poo.

Of Montreal was amazing. Am and I are going to hopefully see them twice more when we're in Florida for spring break. I'm excited. Hecks yeah!

Um... That's about it, really.

Wed, 28 Feb 2007 14:10:46 GMT

I just found out that my 19 year old cat lost the use of her legs sometime between last night and this morning. We're taking her to be put to sleep at noon. I don't quite know what to do with myself.

We've been expecting something like this to happen for a while, due to her age, but it's completely different when it actually happens.

Think happy thoughts about her little kitty soul going up to the big tuna can in the sky. :/

Thu, 01 Feb 2007 22:49:04 GMT

I'm just really, really annoyed right now and once again I've realized that I can't count on anybody but myself to get shit done.

my life as of late

Tue, 30 Jan 2007 05:06:37 GMT

I haven't updated this thing in forever, but I guess it's fitting I'm doing it on the eve before my 18th birthday, haha.

Yeah, I don't know what all to say. Stuff going on in my life right now:

- I start an internship with a professor at kendall college of art and design tomorrow. i'm a little nervous. well, a lot, actually.

- I'm going to ferris next year, but i'm still waiting for my acceptance letter. i'm getting in though, definitely. haha.

- i am really really really needing a job. a lot. i may possibly get an interview at charlotte rousse at woodland mall because my mom used to work with a manager there. i turned in an application yesterday, so hopefully something will happen.

- i am being emo because my love life has been shit lately. i really just want a boy that i like to like me back without silly complications. is that really too much to ask? seriously. am i really that unlovable? i dont think i am, but maybe? pfft. i dont know. self confidence minus 500 points.

- i'm getting sick of the number of people i know that are ruining their lives with drugs/alcohol/making bad choices.

- i'm also getting sick of the friends that i have that are immature and aren't making good choices that relate to their education and/or future. i'm starting to get really pissed whenever people joke around when they should be working.

- i really really need some new clothing. all of my clothes are falling apart and/or the wrong size. however, i need a job in order to get some new clothing. bleh.

- i'm going to chicago next month for a weekend to visit a couple of friends. i'm really really really excited, but i'm also worried about having enough money to go and do fun things. am's family is going to pay me a hundred bucks to dogsit for a week, though, so i should be good.

- i seriously want a boy. i hate that i feel so lonely, but it's really starting to get to me. i was all set to wait until next year when i'll be up at ferris, surrounded by new people, but i'm just really really effing lonely, and i hate it. HATE it! I really don't like feeling like I need somebody else around to make me happy. It's just.. incredibly distasteful. I don't really know what else to say.

- there are way way way too many fucking new kids at school, and there's two new girls named alex who are complete dumbasses and i hate them and want them to go die in a fire. so now there are five alexes in the school, which is never fun. also, most of the new kids are just.... dumb. and they're all freshmen or sophomores. the school is really going downhill and i feel really bad for the teachers. they've all handled much worse, though.

- i started a new class at kctc today - layout & design with ms. riolo. She seems a little spazzy and control-feakish, and also kind of bitchy, but i think she'll probably lighten up after getting to know us. i also think i'm going to learn a lot in the class, which is most important. i can't wait until rory fucks up so i can see her just tear into him, hahaha. what an idiot.

- i am also worried about melody, alicia, and my cousin. they are all going through some hard stuff right now, and i can't really help at all. it's really frustrating. i'm trying to find a way to get hannah out here for the summer. i can't believe i haven't seen her in over three years.

- i find it really hard to believe i'm turning 18 tomorrow. i still feel like some the lame 14 year old loser with no life and no friends that i used to be. it's just... weird. i don't want to grow up, sometimes. i'd really just love to stay like five years old forever and not worry about any of the stupid shit i'm stressed out about right now. i think that's another reason i'm looking forward to chicago so much - besides being in the city and seeing greg and roger - i can get away from everything for three days and not have to think about my life.

- i am a huge stresscase right now because of all of the above. so if i snap at you for something stupid, i'm sorry. also, if anybody wants to donate some hugs or snuggle time, feel free.

shit, son. i'm 18 now. legal. woo hoo.

GameBoyGirl99 (12:01:37 AM): congratulations
GameBoyGirl99 (12:01:44 AM): you can now have sex with eh creepy old men
morealexiaplease (12:01:58 AM): GEE THANKS I'LL BE SURE TO DO THAT ASAP
GameBoyGirl99 (12:02:10 AM): XD

Peace.

Wed, 08 Nov 2006 02:23:29 GMT

Duuude. I am soooo medicated right now. Stupid codine cough syrup. NOT FUN.

especially since i need to stay awake to write like 7000 more words of my novel. LAME.

Thu, 02 Nov 2006 23:43:46 GMT

So, yeah... today has been eh. These past couple weeks have been kind of shitty, actually. Today I was supposed to go see Mat Kearney with Alicia and Kadda, but Alicia had hockey practice and Kadda got Chili Peppers tickets at the last minute. Amara pretty much ditched me to go to sleep and I don't really have anybody else I want to hang out with that much. So.. yeah.

Eh. I don't know. If anybody wants to hang out or whatever, that'd be cool.

Sat, 21 Oct 2006 00:25:24 GMT

I think it would be hilarious if the next president declared George W Bush an unlawful enemy combatant.

Seriously.

..and america continues to go down the tubes.

Sat, 21 Oct 2006 00:14:13 GMT

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=igycXBseoAg

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M9QNb0OZshg

um. okay. i can't believe people actually elected this idiot.

that's all i can say because i'm too pissed off to do anything else.

i hate that my rights keep getting taken away and there isn't really anything i can do about it.

more websites for consideration:
blackboxvoting.org
downsizedc.org

Wed, 11 Oct 2006 03:02:41 GMT

Ahh, I got to meet ponies and hang out with Rachel and Anna and Robbie and Kada and then Kada gave me a ton of really good music. But I need to go rip music and put it on my ipod and then snuggle with rats and then sleep, so that's all I can say for now. XD